Growing too Fast

A terrible thought occurred to me yesterday as I was driving Chris around. This day camp thing weirds me out, he's gone from 9-3 everyday, it's most of our day. This is what it will be like when he goes to school this fall. Sweetboy Gone. All day, just in time to come home from dinner. Someone else is going to be forming him 8 hours a day...someone that isn't me. They say we Raise them until they go off to college, but its not true, we only get 5 good years, we've got to make them count. HAve I done everything I can?
I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I'm barely keeping my head above water, then on the other hand we have weeks like this week, where he makes progress so amazing, that his growth astounds me.
This has been a bittersweet week for me watching Chris.
At day camp, we've been packing underwear. I've been trying to work on potty training a bit at home too, but he gets upset when I put him on the potty, and after a wet pair of underwear he wants to switch, and honestly so do I. I know its time, he's enjoying the process. Tuesday, he put his own diaper on himself. Really? A little loose. Still, if he can put his own diaper on, he can figure out the rest, right? Unless he can't. I hate that there's this dark thought, what if he physically can't? Should I yell, I don't. If he doesn't he doesn't. If he pees, I just help him disrobe. He doesn't tell me he peed, or that he has to pee, almost like he wants to hide it. But we put him on the pot hourly for 3 hours today...peed twice. Today, he took his own soggy clothes off, and traipsed them over to the laundry.

Yesterday he peed in the potty at Day Camp!

Miss Maggie said he just trickled, but he went 2 hours dry, but he only had the one wet pair of undies. I got the impression they were downplaying it, just in case it was just a coincidence. Not to me! I hyped it up! It's been so rare he's peed in the potty, I can't remember the last pee success we had. So we called Daddy to brag about it. And I swear, if he can make it half a day (3-4 hours) dry I'm going to give him the dragon that's on top of the fridge. He picked it out when we were at the hospital, so we bought it, and it's sitting on top of the fridge, waiting for him. Waiting for him to Get It. He might be close.

In other news, other ways he's Close to Getting It, this morning, Chris asked for a cross to wear, he said because he wants to be reminded how Jesus died for him. I heard Chris and Daddy discussing it during Flush Time.
We're pretty traditional in our Faith. We believe in Infant Baptism, so we baptized both boys when they were teensy. But as a friend of mine once said, Through Baptism God says, I love You. And through Confirmation we learn to say I Love you too.
On the other hand, Chris and God have been a lot tighter than I was, Chris is a Miracle, a walking talking amazing miracle, who shows the presence of God all the time.
As soon as I heard Chris expressing the desire to get closer to Jesus I started getting kind of shaky. I felt like God was leading us to Prayer. But I've not done this, praying to lead someone to Christ, was Chris even Ready? I don't know. I hopped online, and got a Sign, I found a family friend, who is a Pastor down in KY, and I asked him, How do you know when a young person is ready to ask Jesus into his heart? I've heard of kids doing this, but both Eric and I were much older when we really came to know God. We chatted for a while.

Adarryl told us that it Sounds like you're on the right track. His personal suggestion would be keep leading him towards the Gospel...Keep intentionally leading them towards the story of Christ's work and keep praying. Later, I believe it will pay great dividends with the assurance of salvation in their minds and yours.
A key for assurance for you as a parent is he, as a child, belongs to the Lord. He is in an ideal situation to learn the truth of the Gospel. When he understands the Gospel completely he will likely accept it, not just that day but for a lifetime. You've already lead him toward God's Spirit. I sense God is already very much control of the salvation situation for your child. I believe, Scripturally, He bountifully blesses the parents (who are believers) with this great sense of peace, and I believe you're feeling it now, which is AWESOME.

Indeed, I was so excited about Chris's eminent acceptance of Jesus, I wanted to shout it from the rooftops. It's kind of been my job, being his mom, God has given me specifically to bring these beautiful souls back to Him, closer to Him, and it feels like its almost working. You said I'm on the right track, once again, God demonstrating He knows exactly what he's doing when he puts a certain child into a certain family.

After potty time, we had a family prayer meeting, and when talking with him, he understands Jesus and God, and how he died, but doesn't seem to understand How it was for us. Deep stuff. Gotta work on this a bit more, I think. But today was a Big Step I think, a big step, and it was a real Blessing. One more of many. And we're on the right track.